During the costing paper on Monday, it's the worst paper we ever did in our life. It's so hard that so many people cried about it. She and I were damn shag and down. We dunno how to comfort each other when we on the way to train station. I send her home on that afternoon.
At her block walking home, she suddenly cried. I keep digging and ask her what happen and she say she's tired. But deep in my heart I know she feel stress because her father have high hope on her. In the house her tears never stop. My emotion can't control too. I keep breathing hard and sigh all the way. Thinking of i still have the two more paper to take on the day after and Friday.
Sad enough that her back pain attacks again. She got hell pain and can't even rest well on the bed. All the thing i can do is to play the Piglet with her to make her forgot about the pain. I really dunno what i can do to help her stop the pain. During that moment of time i felt so lost. Stress about her pain and myself. During the late time and i head home. That's the very last good bye kiss i have given her.
The day after, Tuesday morning. I sms and called her but she didn't reply. I hope she can be able to teach me today for my paper at around 3pm plus. Suddenly i saw her active on facebook and i called her again. I ask is she meeting and teaching me later, she replied a No. I was so shock and dunno what to do. I answered Okay and we hang up. Kinda deadly as i dunno anything about the topic and she's not teaching me.
I head to meet some of my classmate whom need to attend the retest and we study together. They didn't really teach me much and i don't understand at all. I really hope that she can come down and teach me. I'm really that fucking stress at that moment. Two year of course and if i fail this i will go no where. Time is ticking and still nothing goes into my mind. What for i go for the test where i really don't know anything. Is not that i don't wanna try doing it. Is i really don't know.
I left the studying halfway. Out the school and i head to see my late father. I'm really lost and stress. Kinda feel like crying and shouting out loud. I wave for cab and off i go to Guang Ming Shan. In front of my dad i tell him everything in my heart. I cried. Deep pain and i miss him very much. How i wish that she can be around.
When is the time for the test, teachers called me and i ignore. Finally she calls. She asked where am i and ask me to go for the paper. Same reason, no point going and draw lines. How i hope that she will come down for me. But she didn't.
At that place i left and find some quite place to settle down. Hungry for food and drinks as i didn't swallow anything since morning. I walk that unknown place and find shops for food and drinks. I head home like during the late evening. That night, i can't believe and expect that this thing happen on me.
Girl, you tell me what should i do, when i needed you the most.
